3/7

Today been a long day but the week went by fast.....Today i know my boo went to church but she is not online right now i miss her soooooo much......I thought about her a lot today lol what am i talking about i think about her everrrrrrrryday lol.....HOpe i can actually talk to her this weekend unlike last weekend i only got to talk to her on sunday..... i will try my best to call her......gosh i miss her soooooooo much and don't know what to say.........

3-6

Been awhile since i been here writing in my journals. LIfe has been stressing and hard. I been missing my boo a lot even know at times when i talk to her but still i miss her. i love her sooo much.... not knowing how to explain my feelings for her but i just know i do with all my hope... she can always turn my day around when its bad its her that determine if the sun ever rise on my life or not... She determines my lif my all.. She truly means the wolrd to me she's my one and only always and 4 ever i really don' tknow what i'll do without her and i hope i never have to find out....if she ever left my life i would just stay single 4 ever because i know without her my life be meaningless......i love her with alllll my heart until the end......

2/20

Friday saturday and sunday been like hell!!!!!!!!FIrst on friday lost my valentine to someone else.... then on saturday my boo went to the dance with her valentine Tim...... then Now on sunday i found out she went on my sn and deleted her friend sn and my ex sn. Then i went on her sn and someone with the sn pnoy extreme or something that is like Tim or marky and he aimed me on her sn and was like who is this then at tht time i knew she was talking to him.... then i was just sad. then she found out i went on her sn and she went online and the first thing i said was hey boo but i can't believe the first thing she said was hey boo gtg did you got on my sn?... can't believe taht was the first thing she said.... it hurted me sooo much she didn't know what i been through..i was going to take the walk that night too look at stars taht night when she was out at her school dance but i didn't cause i know she would be worried about juliet trying to find me.... i didnt' want her to worry and she didn't know that night i was waiting for her to get home from the dance so she can be online and i waited till 12 45 am and my parents bitch at me for being on sooooo late... then i dind' tfall asleep till like 3 30 am and my mom woke me up at lie around 6 30 am barely had sleep i wanted to talk to my boo that morning but she wasn't online and i was hoping she would atleast send me an e mail but she didn't..... i was on the whole day waiting for her.... my parents even bitch at me for being online and i tried to call her the whole day and my rentz was bitching at me too gosh what a 3 day first lost my valentine then a lot of shit happens..... i really don't know she doesn't know i been crying for her for the past 3 days but i guess its ayte i just don't really know no more.... its not like i don't love her anymore cause i really do love her with all my heart....

2/11

Today been hun had some fun with my girl wooooo hoooooooo hehe. Found out some stuff about her past with her ex but i guess its ayte have to let that gooo......gosh i know its the past but at times its hard not thinking about her past..... well that will never change the feeling i have for her cause i love her soooo much.....she means the world to me...... as long as she is faithful to me then i am happy... all i can do now is wish that she will always be faithful.... Cause i know i will always i will never do anything to ever hurt her cause i love her too much. i love her to death......

2/10

Valentines is coming up it should be a good day for me but i don't think it will be just of a lot of stuff...... iono i was giogn to go to my school dance but now i do'nt wnt too no more just because i don't want my hun to worry about me.... but i will miss her while she will be at the dance at her school....today i called her and talked to her i was so happy to hear her voice..... cause i know its not worth it if i do to my dance while she will be at hers and might be worrying about me..... i guess this is what they call true love put her being always before me no matter what even if the consequence is me having pain....i wouldn't mind taking all her pain away and have her feel joy i guess i just love her sooooo much... valentines day is in 4 days and the dance is in 5 days...... she is goign with either kevin or tim well ionio what to say just hope she is happy and she have fun cause taht is all that matters to me....i'll take the pain and consequence just of the word love.......